Saturday, 12 January 2013

To no longer fight in my strength, but take flight in the strength of God.

So, 2013 has come flying in (I can't belive it is already the 12th of January)!
God has already taught me a lot and shown me a lot.

Do you ever wake up in the morning and think "NOOOOOOOOOOO! Not today. Not when its cold. Not when its raining. Not when its winter/summer. Not when my bed is so warm and the world outside it is cold. Not when my hairs going wrong. Not when its Monday. Not when its early. Not when the day ends with the suffix 'day'" - I hope its one of these not all of these! Sometimes I wake up and the last thing I want to do, especially in winter, is leave my bed!

But, if you stayed in bed it would be limited to what you can do, right? In the same way, God is challenging me in my spiritual journey, to stop saying "But I'm to tired to reflect, I already prayed, My bible reading for today is sufficient enough...*insert other silly comments here*". I was reminded by God whilst at conference, that I need him more than anything else - and when I think I don't need him, I'm wrong. I need him to help me get up, to help me love the people I meet every day, to help me serve, to help me learn more about him, to help me sleep etc.

When we are so broken - which we all are - we need God so badly. We will never stop being broken until we are with God in heaven (because of his wonderful grace) and until that point we need God, we need him in us, working through us, because we are weak. I am weak, and in my weakness God is strong - when I think I'm strong by myself, I'm weaker than when I think I'm weak but let God be my strength.

1 Chronicles 16:11 says "Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually" and Philippians 4:13 says "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." There are many other examples of God being the strength of his followers in the Bible, God literally gave David physical strength to beat Goliath, He gave Esther the strength of heart to stand up for what she knew was right, He gave Samson supernatural strength to wrestle a Lion! God knows what you need, if you let him be your strength, admitting your weakness and spending time in his presence, imagine how much God can work through you, and how much good can come from it!

This leads sort of back to where I started, in that I need to keep being disciplined, to keep pushing myself to spend time in God's presence, to know and believe the truth he tells me and to let God become greater by my self becoming less (John 3:30). This is something I challenge myself to this year, to wake up and spend each day with God, as someone wonderful phrased it "Just fall back into God's arms every single day". So that is what I shall aim for. This year I want to declutter my heart and my mind, to re-jig things that are in the wrong place, throw away broken things and be less me and more God. This will take time and effort, effort I have to decide to put in - by reading my bible, meditating, praying and more - through God's strength.

Do not strive in your own strength; cast yourself at the feet of the Lord Jesus, and wait upon Him in the sure confidence that He is with you, and works in you. Strive in prayer; let faith fill your heart-so will you be strong in the Lord, and in the power of His might. - Andrew Murray

Friday, 4 January 2013

Goodbye 2012, Hello, Welcome, 2013!

So, what was 2012?
It was a great year, a year of growth!
I finished my A-levels (without dying, which at many points I thought I would - Cause of death: Chemistry). I left college and got accepted by my first choice of university - Bath Spa - to study my top choice of course :) - I defferred my place to do the SWYM foundation year!

I turned 18! Yes, I successfully made it into adulthood.

I spent my summer at many christian festivals! New wine, working in The Vibe, a cafe that comes under the Thirst group - an amazing week, with amazing people! Then my last youth camp as a young person - Soul Survivor B - and it was wonderful! Then Soul Survivor C with Susie, working in the soul action Cafe! what an amazing, busy, summer that was!

I then flung myself straight into the SWYM foundation year - Be transformed! Its been an awesome first term, ups and downs, laughing and crying, but its all worth it! Ive made some amazing friends, and had lots of fun!

See my previous post for my year - 2012 - in photos!

As for 2013, I can't wait to see what you will bring :)
Lots more fun memories I'm sure!
My aims:
Grown in my relationship with God.
Figure out what I want to do as of september (and do it).

Happy 2013 to you all!

2012 in Photos!