God has already taught me a lot and shown me a lot.
Do you ever wake up in the morning and think "NOOOOOOOOOOO! Not today. Not when its cold. Not when its raining. Not when its winter/summer. Not when my bed is so warm and the world outside it is cold. Not when my hairs going wrong. Not when its Monday. Not when its early. Not when the day ends with the suffix 'day'" - I hope its one of these not all of these! Sometimes I wake up and the last thing I want to do, especially in winter, is leave my bed!
But, if you stayed in bed it would be limited to what you can do, right? In the same way, God is challenging me in my spiritual journey, to stop saying "But I'm to tired to reflect, I already prayed, My bible reading for today is sufficient enough...*insert other silly comments here*". I was reminded by God whilst at conference, that I need him more than anything else - and when I think I don't need him, I'm wrong. I need him to help me get up, to help me love the people I meet every day, to help me serve, to help me learn more about him, to help me sleep etc.
When we are so broken - which we all are - we need God so badly. We will never stop being broken until we are with God in heaven (because of his wonderful grace) and until that point we need God, we need him in us, working through us, because we are weak. I am weak, and in my weakness God is strong - when I think I'm strong by myself, I'm weaker than when I think I'm weak but let God be my strength.
1 Chronicles 16:11 says "Seek the Lord and his strength; seek his presence continually" and Philippians 4:13 says "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." There are many other examples of God being the strength of his followers in the Bible, God literally gave David physical strength to beat Goliath, He gave Esther the strength of heart to stand up for what she knew was right, He gave Samson supernatural strength to wrestle a Lion! God knows what you need, if you let him be your strength, admitting your weakness and spending time in his presence, imagine how much God can work through you, and how much good can come from it!
This leads sort of back to where I started, in that I need to keep being disciplined, to keep pushing myself to spend time in God's presence, to know and believe the truth he tells me and to let God become greater by my self becoming less (John 3:30). This is something I challenge myself to this year, to wake up and spend each day with God, as someone wonderful phrased it "Just fall back into God's arms every single day". So that is what I shall aim for. This year I want to declutter my heart and my mind, to re-jig things that are in the wrong place, throw away broken things and be less me and more God. This will take time and effort, effort I have to decide to put in - by reading my bible, meditating, praying and more - through God's strength.