Thursday, 5 December 2013
Some of you will know what my past few weeks have been like. Some of you won't. I'm not writing this to share that, but I will say they have been exceedingly difficult.
For now I want to share this:
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.
I will stand. I will be held up when I cannot stand. If it were not for God I would not be alive.
The last couple of weeks, have been deeper into the valley than I ever thought I'd go, and I am scared almost all the time, but that doesn't mean I can't stand, even with the fear, and declare that God is with me. But Jesus has died and rose again, he has paid the price for me to lie down in green pastures and be beside quiet waters, and have restoration for my soul. He will guide me, and be with me, even in the shadow of death.
I'm not writing this because I fully understand, or think I've got it sorted now. I'm writing this because I need to remind myself that although I can barely stand, although I am in deaths shadow, although the pain is more than I can bear, Jesus has paid the price and he is alive and all that is promised as a result of it will come, and until that day I will never be alone, even in my darkest suffering.