Wednesday, 5 March 2014
Lent, lies and truth.
So, yesterday was shrove tuesday, or more commonly known as pancake day. This means today is the start of Lent. So most people will of (if taking part at all) given up something they like or love. This is often done, in my experience of my own lent attempts, to prove I can, whether that be to myself of God or others. A few years back someone explained to me that lent was meant so you could draw closer to God, so that year I gave up cake, and when I wanted cake, I tried to think of God. However, at this time, it was not really for God that I was giving up cake, it didn't lead me closer to God, it probably lead me deeper into my eating disorder, with Lent as an excuse. There have been times where I've tried to read my bible daily in lent, which I also try and do the rest of the time. I wasn't doing lent right, and somehow I new it, but I didn't know what I was meant to do most of the time. There were times I knew what I should give up, but I decided not too, for fear of failing, for fear of it being too difficult.
This year I'm giving up believing lies for lent and I will be replacing them with truth from God. These lies may be about myself, others or the world. We lie or believe lies a lot more than we realise, but the bible says that "Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free" (John 8:32). Im tired of giving things up that make no lasting difference in my relationship with God, things that I don't even remember a year later, or their impact. This isn't limited to lent, I have no intention that when lent is over I go back to believing all the lies I believe now, I intend for this to be ongoing. And that each year Lent will remind me of the freedom the truth should be bringing to my life, and mind me to search out the lies in my life and replace them with truth.
Im not under the illusion that this will be easy, there are lies Ive believed my entire life, and 19 years worth of believing it isn't going to change overnight, but it is what God has asked me to work through with him. Now matter how hard it is, eventually, the truths will penetrate my heart and mind, and the lies will be gone. This lent is going to be difficult, but by no means am I doing it alone, God will be with me, and I have asked some close friends who are around me a lot to support me in this. This will be the first real lent, the first lent that will draw me nearer to my daddy, and it may be a struggle but what is more worthwhile than getting closer to the one who cares for you and loves you more than anyone else. I enter this lent excited and nervous, and I will be sharing some of my journey on here, so feel free to follow along.
I am also doing 40 acts, and if you want to know more about that I suggest you google it :)
I hope and pray this lent also draws you closer to your daddy, and more into truth and freedom.