Wednesday, 19 March 2014
So this is my first post into lent, and for those of you who don't know, I'm giving up believing lies. There are so many lies we believe, more than I realised! And believing lies is just as destructive as telling them, in fact I think it is telling them, but telling them to yourself. The fact is, that if we knew God well enough, dwelt in his presence enough, became more and more like him, we wouldn't believe lies anymore. Anyway, getting off the point!
The lie I want to write about today is "worry will somehow change this." Now hear me out, I know when I first thought about this I immediately thought "thats not true, I don't believe that." But my life tells quite a different story, because if I really believed that I wouldn't be worrying. For me worry is a big thing, its a big part of my illness too, I worry in excess. Don't hear me wrong, my illness is not an excuse to worry, its a fact - I worry, my illness probably partly stems from that amongst other things, but I don't belong to my illness or to worry, I belong to God.
Logically, rationally, I know that worrying more and more will not change the outcome, but does that stop me? No! I still worry myself silly, which is essentially destructive. It has no positives. We worry about different kinds of things. We worry about external things - money, jobs, enough food, somewhere to live. We worry about internal things - being healthy, doing the right thing, making correct decisions for the future. We worry about how we are viewed by people - am I to fat/thin/tall/short etc, am I kind enough, do people like me? When I say we, I am generalising based on myself and people around me, if none of these apply to you, please get in touch and tell me all your secrets!!! (Im joking, because i know your secret, its God's love through Jesus death on a cross).
I worry without thinking, thats one of the difficulties with this lie, is that its not conscious. I don't spin a tombola with all areas of my life in, pick one and worry about it, hoping it will change. That would be silly, although I LOVE TOMBOLAS. I will do more posts on the different areas of worry I mentioned above when I work on them. But first, if I really want to stop worrying, I need to observe what I worry about, so I aim to write everything I worry about down, and then attempt to stop.
My plan of attack on worry, is to use something that does change things instead. Yes I do mean prayer! Isn't it exciting, the prospect that there is something that can change the things you are worrying about, or change your attitude towards it. We can talk to the magnificent creator of the world, about all our worries, from "what if i burn my toast?" to "what if I never get better?"
I don't expect you to join me in listing your worries and praying through them, but if you want to go ahead. But there may be something worrying you now, the best thing I can think of to do with that worry is take it to God. Also, try and only deal with today, another thing that will help keep worry under control, and straight from the bible.
"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." - Matthew 6:34