Friday, 9 May 2014
Hello hello, people who read my blog. Im in an odd mood today, probably exhaustion related! Anyway, I had a brain wave the other day, so I thought I'd share. (Yes Rachel you probably did see this coming!)
So, I was thinking about judgement, which is a rather tangled topic really isnt it! I see a lot of posts on facebook and twitter and stuff criticising or judging others, and also saying how people who judge people are wrong (which is judging people...) and things like that. I know I'm guilty of judging people, and I try to correct my mind and apologise to God when I do, because its wrong. I think most of us know, deep down, it isnt for us to judge, because God commanded us to love, he didnt say "go out and judge all nations". God is the only one that has the right to cast judgement.
But that isn't what I want to post about. Often people say or think "It isnt for us to judge". Well, I do, and I asked someone and they agreed. But we there is one person we continually judge, almost constantly, and often based on particular things which will vary from person to person. This person is ourselves. I think some of us (I say that because I do, but maybe others don't) judge ourselves a lot, when we are called not to judge, just to love. And for me, this is one of the hardest things. I find it easier to comprehend loving and not judging others, but I barely think about it being an option not to judge and just to love me. I strive to not judge others, to love them how God would want me to, and I ignore my continually self shaming.
So this is my brain wave moment, shared, and I don't know what it will mean to you, if anything, but it hit me, that I need to actively choose not to judge myself. This will take time, when you have done something for a long time it doesnt change easily, but it isnt they way God intended me to think about myself. Im not judged on my acts or looks or abilities by God, whose opinion is the only one that really matters, I'm judged by my status of daughter of the king, and the sacrafice of Jesus on the cross. As are you, (some may be sons of the king not daughters).
Ask God, with me, to open your mind to let go of the judgements you have on yourself and replace them with his, because he made you wonderful.